Adventures of the Northwest

Confidence.... Life.... Mixed Messages.... Goals.... Gains....Losses.... Risk?

Life is kind of funny.... not always funny like we laugh to survive funny but ha ha funny. Why do we repeat some patterns that we wish to never repeat? Why do we allow ourselves to feel in a way that perhaps is not in our best interest? Why do we lack confidence at a time when we need to be our strongest? Why is change so slow and painful at times? How can we move forward to strive towards our goals? To receive the results we wish to achieve? To get our needs and wants met in life? Are we that scared to be hurt? Are we that scared to lose who we are, what we are, what we've achieved? or are we simply too scared to gain what we really want, to embrace it, to accept it, to love it, to nurture it and to risk getting hurt to get what we want?

I don't think it is right for someone to 'buy love', to plead for someone to pay attention to them or to want to be with them. If someone does not feel for you or want to strive to be with you then you can't force it. I think it is ONLY right that someone naturally wants to do this because of how they feel and what they want. I think we all have to fight our demons and to battle our fears to get what we want. If we truly want something so badly we have to fight to get it. It may NOT be a right decision for the long term but it could be the right decision in the short term. Perhaps it is just a stepping stone towards bigger and better things or perhaps it will reach us directly to that thing we need or want the most.

My heart has been broken many a times but each time I step out of it as a stronger person, someone that is wiser, more understanding, more grounded, more flexible and more willing to take a risk for something bigger and greater. How much can one stand to be miserable in the path they currently lead before they are willing to get off that path and turn to take a new one? making changes and taking a risk is scary but needed when the current path is torturous and you wish to be happy and are not while you're continuing the path that seems 'comfortable'. Sometimes you have to break out of your comfort level to look back, look forward, see things more clearly and take a leap of faith that things can get BETTER if you just put confidence in yourself, in your gut that tells you what is right and stop analyzing what your fears are. Or maybe analyze them to understand them and help you get past them, to make you stronger and wiser.

Risk can be good.... weigh what you will gain compared to what you will lose. Lose yourself, lose your goals being met, lose your passion for life or what? Or can you gain - gain what you want, gain what you need, gain by living your life, doing what your passionate about and not just being an empty shell going through emotions rather than being a LIVING being full of life, love and passion to live life to its fullest!

These are only some of the thoughts I have as some of my friends are questioning their existence in the relationships they are currently in or their need for a new career after being fired or needing to quit jobs.... no one can MAKE us happy... we have to find the happiness and the confidence inside us. Only we have those answers and only looking deep inside can we understand what we truly long for in life and then work on getting it. What I am saying is happiness, confidence, desire, wants, needs, passion, drive and the ability to fulfill our needs comes from within. Outside factors can play a part on and effect your happiness but you got to 'build your happiness' from within.

we all make choices. I am fortunate enough to feel that all my choices have always been an improvement and keep making me forward with more happiness than the previous path taken.... I wish that for all my friends making these decisions as well.

posted by Seattlebiker @ 12:47 PM